The Dreaded NMO Pain
I was first diagnosed with NMO in February 2020. It took 7 years for me to get to this point after being misdiagnosed in 2013. During that time, I was pretty much non-symptomatic and was only dealing with vertigo and nystagmus (involuntary eye movement) symptoms. After the last attack that lead to my diagnosis, I was completely shook by the unexpected, unexplained pain that was to follow and never go away.
My first experiences with NMO pain
Just days before I was told by my neurologist that I had this mysterious illness called NMO, I ended up back in the hospital for unbearable nerve pain in my face. It initially started with an odd feeling on the top of my head that felt like something was pressing into my scalp. This quickly spread down my face to this burning, intense stabbing pain. The pain was so bad that I found myself immediately breaking down in tears anytime this "attack" would happen. I didn't understand what was going on. I couldn't see, so looking up symptoms was out of the question, and I heavily relied on my doctors for answers. In the midst of this, I went to the ER. Hopefully, I would find a solution. I prayed for relief.
The start of the inevitable
While I was in the ER, I was given morphine for pain. This did not work. It only relaxed me and yet I could still fix the pain. Then they tried, "something stronger than morphine", which also had the same effect. I thought "what is going on here, what kind of problem do I have that doctors cannot fix?". I could tell this was not something they were prepared to deal with and were not going to. They sent me home with Tylenol with codeine and told me to see my neurologist. That was the point I knew what I was in for. I knew I had to find a way to be stronger than my illness before it would overcome me.
The intense nerve attacks began at the top of my head and moved down my face into my upper body. This pain lasted for almost 5 months before it began to subside. All the while, there was a feeling of numbness and tingling in my fingers and legs. I also did not seem to have much feeling in my trunk area which lead to the malfunction of my bladder and bowels. There was no relief provided to me by my doctors. 8 months after my attack I started experiencing muscle spasms which progressed into uncontrollable movements by 10 months. I was finally referred to a pain management doctor who was able to provide me with more relief and treatment options than any other doctors that I've encountered. Finally! A light at the end of the tunnel!
The evolving solution
As of now, I have taken a series of medications to try to treat the pain and muscle spasms, however, I have gone through surgery and had an Intrathecal Baclofen Pump installed in June 2021. Baclofen is a muscle relaxer medicine commonly used to decrease spasticity related to multiple sclerosis, spinal cord injuries, or other neurological diseases. An intrathecal delivery system, which provides the baclofen right to the target site in the spinal cord, is an effective way to deliver the medicine. Along with the pump, my doctors have tried to add Prialt, which is a pain medicine that helps with nerve pain to the pump. Unfortunately, the side effects associated with this have been too drastic for me to continue its use and have landed me in the ER twice. Now, I am taking Valium along with the Baclofen. The unfortunate truth is that I am still in immense pain.1
The truth of NMO pain
According to a study published by the National Institutes of health, words like "terrible, agonizing, wretched, sickening, and unbearable are frequently used by patients with neuromyelitis optica" to describe the pain they experience. The study continues, "More than 80% of patients with NMO experience pain from this condition, which severely affects their quality of life. At present, there is no known therapy that produces satisfactory relief from NMO-associated pain. In fact, contemporary pain therapy is largely ineffective in these patients, suggesting that the mechanisms underlying pain in NMO differ substantially from those of other treatable causes of pain." So what can we as sufferers do for pain? I have learned to live with it. The best that I can while working with my doctors to try different solutions to manage the symptoms.2
What solutions have you found that work for your pain?
Do you feel guilty when you need to rest?